I was first introduced to the works of Dostoevsky when I was 14. But at that time, I had not the years to understand what I read of them. Yet, they instilled in me deep admiration for him, and a caricature of his ideas. Even today, I remember fragments -- anecdotes, monologues, situations, characters and their idiosyncrasies -- from his novels.
Now at 41 years of age, I am about to undertake a re-reading of Notes from Underground. Knowing what I am about to read from my faint recollection of the material and Dostoevsky's unique treatment, and having been exposed to all kinds of experiences in the meanwhile, and thus having developed a more cultivated view of the world over these years, I must admit to an increased sensitivity and squeamishness for the grotesque. I am now worried whether I should go ahead with the reading or not. Will it mess with my head?
What did it do to you? Say, did Dostoevsky make of you a wise but more feeble mind?